Tired of Sin

Psalms 38:4“For my iniquities are gone over my head; As a heavy burden they weigh too much for me.”

TIRED of sin. Sinning. My wrongs, mistakes, other sins. Earthly life sometimes. TIRED of myself. Love Christ, the only reason why existing isn’t meaningless. He changes everything and gives hope to the hopeless. He paid the price for my sins. He carries my burdens.



I had no idea how lost I’d feel without Bible verses being emailed daily to my mobile. For whatever reason, the site had to be changed and bible verse emails could no longer be sent to subscribers. You’d think, since I only read them as I thought of them, I would hardly miss them. Just goes to show the power of God’s word and the feebleness of man’s word…because missing them wasn’t all that happened….I’m totally lost without them.

Usually, if there was a time of the day I felt down (or several times a day is usually the case) what would lift my spirits would be a bible verse. A randomly selected reminder from Scripture that God chose for me to read that day.

But now, I suppose the thing to do is to find another plan to subscribe to FAST because am realizing just how much I need it.

Reminder to prepare for the Lord’s Day on Saturday nights to. Search my heart, Lord, try me and see the wicked in me, and lead me on the right path.

Sometime I want to write blog posts telling you about the Christian walk. But , as any good writing book will tell you, don’t TELL them, SHOW them. Hopefully these posts show and tell without trying.

CHRISTIAN WALK: Jesus is my shepherd, and I am His lost lamb

Dancing in the Flowers of His Loving Blessings


“Let them praise his name in the dance: let them sing praises unto him with the timbrel and harp.”  Psalm 149:3 .

When bad things happen to you, you praise God.

When good things happen to you, you extol Him.

No matter what happens to you, you dance in praise in the flowers of His blessings.

I guess sometimes, maybe, those flowers are subject to seasons. Sometimes you’ll be in the spring season in life when you see blessing flowers everywhere; can’t even turn around without squashing one. Then comes along summer, and you realize you’ve taken those flowers for granted. Because it’s so hot you don’t even see the spring flowers anymore. But you forget about the summer flower. Then comes fall and things dry up. Then comes winter and it doesn’t matter that there are winter flowers, it just matters that you’re too busy complaining about the cold that you don’t see the beauty right in front of you. God’s always blessing His children. Some days, at least to me, His material blessings aren’t always as obvious as others, but wow. He always takes care of us, physically and spiritually. And his spiritual blessings are a feast.

So I’ll dance like a little child in His abundant flowers of love. Because the joy of anything begins in Christ Jesus.  John 16: 22:”22 So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy.”

Magic Vs God’s Word

Thinking about all the magic described in fantasy tales in both books and movies. Things aren’t always how they aren’t they appear in fairy tales…people can vanish and reappear, turn lizards to dragons, an vanish your true love. Am reminded by a verse in Matthew (daily Bible verses are sent to my mobile, and this is one of today’s) that God’s word is straightforward. There is no “trying to interpret the oracle,” no, “what if, or that.” The idea of magic comes from our fear of the unknown…or own weaknesses. But, “The heavens and the earth will disappear, but My
words will never disappear,” said a Jesus in Matthew 24:35. We don’t have to worry about magic tricks. God’s word is true. Thank you, Lord.



NOTE TO SELF: Self, THIS IS SO IMPORTANT!! The more I focus on sin, and the less on God’s word, I always feel D•E•P•R•E•S•S•E•D. 😦

Can’t tell you how many times I’ve pounded my body against the nearest object, cried, kicked, and grasped my hair angrily, and said words so disrespectful to my Heavenly Father, that essentially were: DON’T YOU CARE, WHY AREN’T YOU LISTENING! Just DO IT!! Thinking about it now, and realizing that my, “Why, why, why” moments are like that of a frustrated child who only gets more angry because he gets worked up about his parents not loving him. When sometimes, he doesn’t get that “toy,” he wants because he has been having a tantrum. Now, to me what I prayed for was more important than a toy. Usually, they are pressing matters. But 99.99999999999999+% of the time when we thing the Lord is chastising us harshly in life, we realize it’s because we have not really been asking.

I look at those moments, some old, some recent, and realize the times I feel the lowest are usually the times I haven’t been meditating on Christ. When prayer is falsely only something I “do in passing” and Scripture is only a morning thing. No. I know my Father MUST drive me to Himself, for my own good, and when I finally turn to Him in tears and desperation, He always hears. Because in Isaiah 59:1-2, is written: “Behold, the Lord’s hand is not shortened, that it cannot save, or His ear dull, that it cannot hear; but your iniquities have made a SEPARATION between you and YOUR GOD, and your SINS have hidden His face from you so that He does not hear.” I don’t remember reading that ever before, although am sure I have several hundred times. There is so much in Scripture I haven’t meditated on!!

1 Corinthians 10:13: “No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and He will not let you be tempted begin your ability, but with the temptation He will also provide a way of escape, that you will be able to endure it.” But so often, instead of walking in the Spirit by obeying Him, I end up going for the temptation. I NEED JESUS. ❤ What did I do to deserve Him?

People think they know me pretty well. But if they saw the brokenness, what would they think? “The LORD said unto Samuel, ‘Look not on his countenance, or the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the LORD sees not as a man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks in on the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7.

People see the happy, The Lord sees the broken. Man sees the smile, but the Lord sees my heart. He saw it before all–the premeditated sin. The blackness. And He took my punishment instead for me. Why wouldn’t I pray to Him always? Thank you, Jesus. Please help me.


Sorry I haven’t posted the prayer calendar every day! 😦

A preacher recently said that In 1 Peter 4, the word used for sin describes premeditation. He said if your sins were tried in court, you would be convicted of first-degree.

Hebrews 10 speaks of deliberate sinning.

Romans 3:23 says, “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.”

Looking up verses on sin, so many verses are in 1 John 3.

In 1 John 3:7: “Whoever makes a practice of sinning is of the devil, for the devil has been sinning from the beginning. The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the works of the devil.”

Psalm 107:20: “He sent out His word and healed them, and delivered them from their destruction.”

2 Corinthians 5:17, 21: “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. For our sake He made Him to be sin Who knew no sin, so that in Him we might become the righteousness of God.”

But, our passions are still at war within us, although we are a new (and improving!) creation in Christ, as written in 1 Peter 2:11,12.


James 1:14; Galatians 5:16: “But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.”